Old Endings and New Beginnings

My last post I said I would be writing when I returned to Korea from my trip home. Well I have been back for over two weeks now and lets just say that things have been pretty crazy around here. If you read the news online at all I am sure you are up to speed, but if not go to http://www.wn.com/ and in the search window at the top type in N. Korea. Read through a few of those articles and you will get a good part of the story.

And that is all I am going to say about that...

My trip home went really well. Coming back to Korea I felt as though my time was spent well. I accomplished all the hunny-do stuff Amanda had waiting for me and then some. I got to spend a ton of time with the kids and as a little surprise I even got to see my mom for a few days. There was a lot of eating out and quiet a lot of money spent, but in the end I have memories that I will remember forever.

I will say that I didn't get to spend as much time alone with Amanda as I would have liked (and no I don't mean in a perverted way). We have an issue with getting Lily to sleep at night and her staying asleep, at least till we are ready for bed. This meant that most nights after Gabriel went to bed were spent on the couch watching TV and entertaining Lily till she was ready to go back to sleep.

I love my kids with all my heart but I have always been a strong believer that a marrage comes first. After all once your kids are old and gone, if you haven't got a strong marrage than you just have a roommate....

...Anyway so Amanda and I are looking into that. We found a book online that we have just ordered and hopefully that will help. We had this same problem with Gabriel and it seemed the first 2+ years of his life was spent with Amanda and I not having much of a relationship at all. It wasn't that we didn't want it...there just wasn't anytime for it.

But at the end of the trip I left with a tear in my eye and a smile on my face. I had special moments with each of them alone and together that will stay with me everyday for the next 5 months. After that I pray that I never have to leave them again. I am tired of the tears, the sleepless nights, and the look on their face as I leave.

I miss them all, and I can't wait till I go home...for good.

Until next time...